When Danielle Evans's short story "Virgins" was published in The Paris Review in late 2007, it announced the arrival of a major new American short story writer. Written when she was only twenty-three, Evans's story of two black, blue-collar fifteen-year-old girls' flirtation with adulthood for one night was startling in its pitch-perfect examination of race, class, and the shifting terrain of adolescence.
Now this debut short story collection delivers on the promise of that early story. In "Harvest," a college student's unplanned pregnancy forces her to confront her own feelings of inadequacy in comparison to her white classmates. In "Jellyfish," a father's misguided attempt to rescue a gift for his grown daughter from an apartment collapse magnifies all he doesn't know about her. And in "Snakes," the mixed-race daughter of intellectuals recounts the disastrous summer she spent with her white grandmother and cousin, a summer that has unforeseen repercussions in the present.
Striking in their emotional immediacy, the stories in Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self are based in a world where inequality is reality but where the insecurities of adolescence and young adulthood, and the tensions within family and the community, are sometimes the biggest complicating forces in one's sense of identity and the choices one makes.
|Publisher:||Penguin Publishing Group|
|Product dimensions:||5.20(w) x 8.00(h) x 0.60(d)|
|Age Range:||18 Years|
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Me and Jasmine and Michael were hanging out at Mr. Thompson's pool. We were fifteen and it was the first weekend after school started, and me and Jasmine were sitting side by side on one of Mr. Thompson's ripped-up green-and-white lawn chairs, doing each other's nails while the radio played "Me Against the World." It was the day after Tupac got shot, and even Hot 97, which hadn't played any West Coast for months, wasn't playing anything else. Jasmine kept complaining that Michael smelled like bananas.
"Sunscreen," Jasmine said, "is some white-people shit. That's them white girls you've been hanging out with, got you wearing sunscreen. Black people don't burn."
Never mind that Michael was lighter than Jasmine and I was lighter than Michael, and really all three of us burned. Earlier, when Jasmine had gone to the bathroom, I'd let Michael rub sunscreen gently into my back. I guess I smelled like bananas, too, but I couldn't smell anything but the polish, and I didn't think she could, either. Jasmine was on about some other stuff.
"You smell like food," Jasmine said. "I don't know why you wanna smell like food. Ain't nobody here gonna lick you because you smell like bananas. Maybe that shit works in Bronxville, but not with us."
"I don't want you to lick me," Michael said. "I don't know where your mouth has been. I know you don't never shut it."
"Shut up," I said. They were my only two real friends and if they fought I'd've had to fix it. I turned up the dial on Mr. Thompson's radio, which was big and old. The metal had deep scratches on it, and rust spots left by people like us, who didn't watch to see whether or not we'd flicked drops of water on it. It had a good sound, though. When the song was over they cut to some politician from the city saying again that it was a shame talented young black people kept dying like this, and it was time to do something about it. They'd been saying that all day. Mr. Thompson got up and cut off the radio.
"You live like a thug, you die like a thug," he said, looking at us. "It's nothing to cry over when people wake up in the beds they made."
He was looking for an argument, but I didn't say nothing, and Jasmine didn't, either. Part of swimming in Mr. Thompson's pool was that he was always saying stuff like that. It still beat swimming at the city pool, which had closed for the season last weekend, and before that had been closed for a week after someone got beat up there. When it was open it was crowded and dirty from little kids who peed in it, and was usually full of people who were always trying to start something. People like Michael, who had nothing better to do.
"I'm not crying for nobody," Michael told Mr. Thompson. "Tupac been dead to me since he dissed B.I.G." He looked up and made some bootleg version of the sign of the cross, like he was talking about God or something. He must've seen it in a movie.
Mr. Thompson shook his head at us and walked back to the lawn chair where he'd been reading the paper. He let it crinkle loudly when he opened it again, like even the sound of someone else reading would make us less ignorant.
Jasmine snorted. She lifted Michael's sweatshirt with the tips of her thumb and index finger so she didn't scratch her still-drying polish and pulled out the pictures he had been showing us before Mr. Thompson came overphotos of his latest girlfriend, a brunette with big eyes and enormous breasts, lying on a bed with a lot of ruffles on it.
"You live like a white girl, you act like a white girl," said Jasmine, frowning at the picture and making her voice deep like she was Mr. Thompson.
"She's not white," said Michael. "She's Italian."
Jasmine squinted at the girl's penny-sized pink nipples. "She look white to me."
"She's Italian," said Michael.
"Italian people ain't white?"
"What the fuck are they, then?"
"Mr. Thompson," Jasmine called across the yard, "are Italian people white?"
"Ask the Ethiopians," said Mr. Thompson, and none of us knew what the hell he was talking about, so we all shut up for a minute.
The air started to feel cooler through our swimsuits, and Michael got up, putting his jeans on over his wet swim trunks and pulling his sweatshirt over his head. I followed Jasmine into the house, where we took turns changing in the downstairs bathroom. It was an old house, like most of the ones in his part of town, but Mr. Thompson kept it nice: the wallpaper was peeling a little, but the bathroom was clean. The soap in the soap dish was shaped like a seashell, and it seemed like we were the only ones who ever used it. On our way out we said good-bye to Mr. Thompson, who nodded at us and grunted, "Girls"; then, harsher, at Michael: "Boy."
Michael rolled his eyes. Michael wasn't bad. Mostly I thought he hung out with us because he was bored a lot. He needed somebody to chill with when the white girls he was fucking's parents were home. We didn't get him in trouble as much as his boys did. We hung out with him because we figured it was easier to have a boy around than not to. Strangers usually thought one of us was with him, and they didn't know which, so they didn't bother either of us. When you were alone, men were always wanting something from you. We even wondered about Mr. Thompson sometimes, or at least we never went swimming at his house without Michael with us.
Mr. Thompson was retired, but he used to be our elementary school principal, which is how he was the only person in Mount Vernon we knew with a swimming pool in his backyard. Weand everybody else we knewlived on the south side, where it was mostly apartment buildings, and if you had a house, you were lucky if your backyard was big enough for a plastic kiddie pool. The bus didn't go by Mr. Thompson's house, and it was a twenty-minute walk from our houses even if we walked fast, but it was nicer than swimming at the city pool. We were the only ones he'd told could use his pool anytime.
"It's 'cause I collected more than anyone else for the fourth-grade can drive, when we got the computers," I said. "He likes me."
"Nah," Jasmine said, "he don't even remember that. It's 'cause my mom worked at the school all those years."
Jasmine's mom had been one of the lunch ladies, and we'd gone out of our way to pretend not to know her, with her hairnet cutting a line into her broad forehead, her face all covered in sweat. Even when she got home she'd smell like grease for hours. Sometimes if my mother made me a bag lunch, I'd split it with Jasmine so we didn't have to go through the lunch line and hear the other kids laugh. At school, Mr. Thompson had been nicer to Jasmine's mother than we had. We felt bad for letting Mr. Thompson make us nervous. He was the smartest man either of us knew, and probably he was just being nice. We were not stupid, though. We'd had enough nice guys suddenly look at us the wrong way.
My first kiss was with a boy who'd said he'd walk me home and a block later was licking my mouth. The first time a guy had ever touched melike touched me thereI was eleven and he was sixteen and a lifeguard at the city pool. We'd been playing chicken and when he put me down he held me against the cement and put his fingers in me, and I wasn't scared or anything, just cold and surprised. When I told Jasmine later she said he did that to everyone, her too. Michael kept people like that out of our way. People had used to say that he was fucking one of us, or trying to, but it wasn't like that. He was our friend, and he'd moved on to white girls from Bronxville anyway. It was like he didn't even see us like girls sometimes, and that felt nice because mostly everybody else did.
Michael's brother Ron was leaned up against his car, waiting for him at the bottom of Mr. Thompson's hill. The car was a brown Cadillac that was older than Ron, who graduated from our high school last spring and worked at Radio Shack. People didn't usually notice the car much because they were too busy looking at Ron and he knew it. He was golden-colored, with curly hair and doll-baby eyelashes and the kind of smile where you could count all of his teeth. Jasmine always said how fine he was, but to me he looked like the kind of person who should be on television, not someone you'd actually wanna talk to. He must've still been mad at Pac, too, or he was just tired of hearing him on the radio, because he was bumping Nas from the tape deck. Michael hopped in the front seat and started to wave bye to us.
"Man," Ron said, cuffing him on the back of his head. "You got two cute girls here, and you ain't even gonna try to take 'em with you? I thought I raised you better than that."
"I'm meeting people at the Galleria. You coming?" Michael called.
"Who's gonna be there?" Jasmine asked.
"Me, Darius, Eddie…; prolly some other people."
"Nuh-uh," Jasmine said. "You're cool, but your boy ain't."
"What's wrong with my boy?" Michael asked, grinning.
Jasmine made a tsk sound. "He ignorant, that's what."
"Damn son," said Ron as he walked back to the driver's side. "Your whole crew can't get no play." He got in, slammed the car door, and did a U-turn. On his way past us he leaned out the window and called, "You get tired of messing with these fools, you come down to the mall and see me," then rolled up the amber window and drove off .
Jasmine's problem was that she had lost her virginity to Michael's friend Eddie four months before. He told her he would go with her afterward but instead he went with Cindy Jackson. We saw them all over the city all summer, holding hands. It drove Jasmine crazy. Jasmine liked to pretend no one knew any of this, even though JASMINE FUCKED EDDIE AND NOW SHE'S PRESSED!! had been written in both the boys' and girls' bathrooms at school for months. Cindy wrote it in both places. I told Jasmine Cindy was probably real familiar with the boys' bathroom.
"The only difference between that girl and the subway," I said, "is that everybody in the world hasn't ridden the subway."
I thought Jasmine would feel better, but instead of laughing she sniffled and said, "He left me for some trashy bitch." After that I just let her cry.
On our way to Jasmine's house, she said, "I'm sad about Tupac, a little. It is sad. You can't ever do anything. I bet you if I got famous, somebody would kill me too."
"What the hell would you get famous for?" I asked.
"I'm just saying, if I did."
"Sure," I said. "You'd be just like Tupac."
"I'm just saying, Erica, you never know. You don't know what could happen. You don't know how much time you got."
Jasmine could be melodramatic like that, thinking because something bad happened somewhere, something bad would happen to you. I remembered when Tupac had went to jail, and Jasmine cried because she said we could get arrested too, and I said, "For what?", but it didn't matter, she just kept crying. Mostly to make her feel better, we had bought it's a set up so keep ya head up T-shirts at the mall. My mother screamed when she saw us wearing them.
"Setup," she said. "Y'all take that crap off. Keep believing everything these rap stars tell you. I'm telling you, the minute a man says someone set him up for anything, you run, because he's about to set you up for something."
There were a whole lot of men we were supposed to stay away from according to my mother: rap stars, NBA players, white men. We didn't really know any of those kinds of people. We only knew boys like Michael who freestyled a little but mostly not well, who played ball violently like someone's life was at stake, or else too pretty, flexing for the girls every time they made a decent shot, because even they knew they would never make the NBA, and we were all they were gonna get out of a good game. The only white men we knew were teachers and cops, and no one had to tell us to try and stay away from them, when that was all we did in the first place, but my mother was always worried about something she didn't need to be.
When we got to Jasmine's apartment, we went straight to her room, which felt almost like it was my room too. We lived two blocks from each other and slept at each other's house as much as we slept at our own. My schoolbooks were still piled on the corner of her floor, my second bathing suit was hanging over her desk chair, where I'd left it to dry last weekend. Me and Jasmine always shared everything, and after I showered I went through Jasmine's closet like I would have gone through mine, looking for something to wear out later. Only this year was sharing things getting to be a problem, because we were starting to be built different. I put on a pair of Jasmine's jeans, which were tight around my hips and she told me so. "Look at you, stretching out my jeans with your big old ass," was what she actually said.
"You wish you had my ass," I said, which was true, she did, because hers was flat like a board and people teased her about it. Jasmine was small but all the meat she had on her was settled in her tummy, which was a cute little puff now but would be a gut someday if she ever got fat. It made me happy sometimes to think that even though Jasmine's face was better than mine, if I ever got fat I'd get fat the way my mother had, all in the hips and chest, and some people would still be all right with that, more than if I had a big giant stomach like Jasmine might one day. We weren't bad-looking, neither one of us, but we weren't ever going to be beautiful, either, I knew that already. We were the kind of girls who would always be very pretty if but if never seemed to happen. If Jasmine's skin cleared up and she could keep her hair done and she did something about her teeth, which were a little crooked, and if I lost five pounds and got contact lenses and did something about the way my skin was always ashy, maybe we'd be the prettiest girls in Mount Vernon, but we weren't, we were just us. Jasmine had beautiful dark eyes and the most perfect nose I ever saw on anybody, and I had nice lips and a pretty good shape, and that was it. We got dressed to go to the movies because there was nothing else to do, and even though Jasmine's pants were a little tight on me and the shirt I'd borrowed was pushing my chest up in my face, I looked all right, just maybe like I was trying too hard.
When we got to the lobby of the new movie theatre, I told Jasmine I liked the way it was done up: the ceiling was gold and glittery and the carpet was still fire-truck red and not dingy burgundy like red carpet usually was. Jasmine said she thought the whole thing looked fake and tacky, and speaking of fake and tacky, look who was here. It was Cindy, in some tight jeans and a shirt that said baby girl and showed off the rhinestone she had stuck to her belly button. Eddie was there, too, and Michael and a bunch of their friends, and they waved us over. When Cindy saw Jasmine she ran up and hugged her, and Jasmine hugged her back, like they hadn't been calling each other skank-ass bitches five minutes ago. The boys all looked confused, because boys are stupid like that.
"Look what Eddie gave me," said Cindy, all friendly. She pulled a pink teddy bear out of her purse and squeezed its belly. It sang You are my sunshine, in a vibrating robot voice. It scared me.
"That's nice," said Jasmine, her voice so high that she sounded almost like the teddy bear. Cindy smiled and walked off to go kiss on Eddie some more. She was swinging her hips back and forth like the pendulum our science teacher had showed us, as if anyone was really trying to look at her.
"Instigator," I whispered to Jasmine as Cindy left. Jasmine ignored me.
"I don't have a teddy bear, neither," said Eddie's friend Tre, putting an arm around Jasmine. Jasmine pushed his arm off.
"C'mon, Jasmine. I lost my teddy bear. Can I sleep with you tonight?"
All Eddie's friends had been trying to push up on Jasmine since they found out she'd done it with him, but Jasmine wasn't having it. She looked at Tre like he was some nasty-flavored gum on the bottom of her shoe. She'd told me next time she was waiting for the real thing, not some punk high school boy. Michael put an arm around each of our shoulders and kissed us both on the cheek, me first, then Jasmine.
"You know these are my girls," he said to Tre. "Leave 'em alone." He didn't need to mention me, but I felt good that he had. His friends mostly left me alone already, because they knew I wasn't good for anything but kissing you a little bit and running away. Michael nodded good-bye as he and his friends walked toward their movie.
Eddie and Cindy stayed there, kissing, like that's what they had paid admission for anyway. I grabbed Jasmine's hand and pulled her in the other direction.
"That's nasty," I said. "She looks nasty all up on him in public like that."
"No one ever bought me a singing teddy bear," said Jasmine as we walked to the ticket counter. "Probably no one ever will buy me a singing teddy bear."
"I'll buy you a singing teddy bear, you silly bitch," I said.
"Shut up," she said. She had been sucking on her own bottom lip so hard she'd sucked the lipstick off it, and her lips were two different colors. "Don't you ever want to matter to somebody?"
"I matter to you," I said. "And Michael."
Jasmine clicked her tongue. "Michael," she said. "Say Michael had to shoot either you or that Italian chick who's letting him hit it right now. Who do you think he would save?"
"Why does he have to shoot somebody?" I said.
"He just does."
"Well, he'd save me, then. She's just a girl who's fucking him."
"And you're just a girl who isn't," Jasmine said. "You don't understand anything, do you? Look…;" She whirled me around and pointed at Cindy Jackson, who had her arms wrapped around Eddie and his hand scrunched in her hair. "When are we going to be that kind of girl?"
"What, the stupid kind? Everyone knows he's messing with that girl who works at the earring place at the Galleria. Probably other girls too."
"That's not even the point, stupid. She's the one he kisses in public."
"Well, that's her own dumb fault, I don't see why you gotta be worried about it," I said. "I wouldn't kiss that idiot in public if you paid me. I wouldn't kiss his fingernail in public."
Jasmine kept watching them kiss for a minute, and she looked real sad, like she might cry or something. "That's your problem, Erica, you don't understand adult relationships," she said.
"Where are there adults?" I asked, looking around. I put my hand to my forehead like I was a sea captain looking for dry land, and turned around in circles, but everywhere it was the same old people doing the same old things.
"You're right," Jasmine said. "I'm tired of these little boys. Next weekend we're going to the city. We're gonna find some real niggas who know how to treat us."
That was not the idea I meant for Jasmine to have.
We had our cousins' IDs, and we'd been clubbing a few times before, in Mount Vernon, but it wasn't the same. It was usually just a bar with a DJ, and someone always knew us; we never stayed that long or got into any real trouble. Once we were inside, people would appear out of nowhere, all Ain't you Miss Trellis's daughter? or Didn't you used to be friends with my little sister? If we flirted even a little bit, someone would show up to say, Yo, those are some little girls right there,and our guy would vanish. Sometimes a guy would get mad and report us to the bouncer, who would tell us it was time to go home. You had your fun girls, he'd say, and the thing was, usually we had. The point was getting in and saying we'd been there. Clubbing in the city was something else.
In a TV sitcom, one of our mothers would have called the other and busted us, but Jasmine's mom worked nights at a diner in Yonkers, and my mom passed out around ten, two hours after she got home from working as a secretary in White Plains, and no one was making any TV show about the two of us so that was that. Her mom thought I was at her house and my mom thought she was at my house, and meanwhile we were standing on the platform of the MTA toward Manhattan.
Jasmine wouldn't let me wear panty hose, because I'd borrowed her shoes that opened at the toe and laced up my leg from my ankles to just below my knee, and I felt naked: Her skirt was too short on me. The only thing Jasmine let me do right was bring Michael with us, and he was standing there in his brother's shoes, since he only owned Tims and sneakers. He also had his brother's ID, even though his brother didn't look a damn thing like him. Michael was smaller and copper-colored and looked to me like he ought to wear glasses, even though he didn't.
"Money earnin' Mount Vernon's not good enough for you two anymore?" he asked, his hands stuffed in his jeans' pockets.
"Mount Vernon's not good enough for anybody," said Jasmine. "And this city needs a new damn motto. Do you know anybody here who earns any real money?"
"Mr. Thompson's doing all right," Michael said, and I thought to turn around and see if Mr. Thompson was standing on the platform watching me, because I knew if he was he'd be disappointed.
It hadn't finished turning into night yet when we'd gotten on the train, but when we got off in the city my legs shivered. It was still early, so we got slices of pizza from Famous Ray's, and sat in the window, watching people go by. Our reflections in the window glass looked watery, like we were melting at the edges.
"All right," said Jasmine. "Who are we tonight?"
"Serene and Alexis, same as always," I said, "And Michael, you're Ron, I guess." I was thinking of the names on our IDs.
"No, stupid. I mean, who are we when guys ask questions?" Jasmine said.
"Seniors?" I said.
"Nah, we're in college," said Jasmine.
"What college?" I said.
"You two? Clown College," said Michael. Jasmine threw a dirty napkin at him.
"That's you, Michael," she said. "We in City College. I'm a fashion major, and I'ma get rich selling people nice clothes so girls don't go around lookin' like Cindy Jackson, lookin' trifling all the time, and so you, Erica, can find some pants that actually fit your ass in them. I got a man, and he's fine, and he plays ball, but I may have to kick him to the curb because lately he's jealous of me, so I'm at the club lookin' for someone who can handle me."
"What's he jealous for?" I asked.
"He's jealous of my success, dummy. Who are you?"
I thought about what I would be if I could be anything, but I didn't really know.
"I'm at City College, too, I guess," I said. "What do you major in to be a teacher?"
"Teaching," said Jasmine.
"Ain't no major in teaching," said Michael.
"You ever been to college?" said Jasmine "Your brother ain't even been to college."
"I'm not stupid," said Michael. "I'm gonna have a degree. I was over at Mr. Thompson's today talking about books and stuff, while you two were putting a bunch of makeup on your faces."
"Whatever," I said. "Teaching. I'm majoring in teaching, then."
"What about your man?" Jasmine said.
"He's great," I said. "He's in college, too, and he's gonna be a doctor, but he also writes me love poems. And paints pictures of me. He's a painter too."
"He so great, why you at the club?" said Michael.
"Umm…; he's dead?" I said.
"Dead?" said Jasmine.
"Dead." I nodded. "I just finished grieving. I burned all his poems and now I wish I still had them."
"Check this chick," said Jasmine. "Even when she makes shit up, her life is fucked up."
Michael gave me his jacket on the way from Ray's to the club, and I wrapped it around me and felt warmer. He was talking about earlier, when he was over at Mr. Thompson's.
"Did you know," said Michael, "that the Ethiopians beat the Italian army?"
"Do I care?" Jasmine asked. "No wonder I never meet nobody, hanging out with you."
Michael made a face at Jasmine behind her back, but we were quiet for the rest of the walk.
I didn't know why Jasmine needed to meet people besides us anyway. Jasmine thought just because people were older, they were going to be more interesting. They didn't look any more interesting, all lined up outside the club like we did on school picture day. At the door one of the bouncers checked Jasmine's ID, then looked her up and down and waved her in. He barely looked at mine, just glanced at my chest and stamped my hand. But he didn't even take Michael's, just shook his head at him and laughed.
"Not tonight," he said.
Michael didn't look too surprised, but he reached for my wrist when he saw I was waiting there, like I would have left with him if he asked me.
"You be careful with yourself, all right?"
I nodded. The bouncer turned around like he might change his mind about letting me in. "Bye, Ron," said Jasmine, and she took off .
I ran in after her. "You didn't have to just leave him like that."
She rolled her eyes. "Whole room full of people and you're worried about Michael. He can take care of himself."
I knew Michael would be all right. It was me I was worried about. The dance floor was full, and the strobe light brought people in and out of focus like holograms. Up on the metal platforms girls were dancing in shorts and bikini tops. The one closest to me had her body bent in half, her hands on her ankles and her shiny-gold-short-covered butt in the air. I wondered how you got to be a girl like that. Did you care too much what other people thought, or did you stop caring?
Me and Jasmine did what we always did at a club, moved to the center of the dance floor and moved our hips to the music. By the end of the first song two men had come up behind us and started grinding. I looked up at Jasmine to make sure it wasn't Godzilla behind me, and when she nodded and gave me a thumbs-up, I pressed into the guy harder, winding forward and backward. At school they got mad about dancing like that, but we never learned any other kind of dancing except the steps from music videos, and good luck finding a boy who could keep up with that.
After we'd been dancing for an hour and I was sweaty and my thighs were tired, we went to the bathroom to fix ourselves. Nothing could be done about your hair once it started to sweat out, and I was glad at least I had pinned most of it up so you couldn't see the frizzy parts too well. I let Jasmine fix my makeup. I could feel her fingers on my face, fixing my eye shadow, smoothing on my lip gloss. I remembered a book we'd read in middle school and said, "It's like I'm Helen Keller, and you're Teacher."
"You're the teacher," Jasmine said. "I'm Alexis, the fashion designer."
"We're not," I said, because it seemed important all of a sudden, but Jasmine was already on her way out the door.
When we left the bathroom we stood by the bar awhile and waited for people to buy us drinks. I used to always drink Midori sours because they tasted just like Kool-Aid, but Jasmine told me I couldn't keep drinking those because that was the easiest way to show you were underage. I tried different drinks on different guys. A lawyer from Brooklyn bought me something too strong when I told him to surprise me, and kept talking about the river view from his apartment while I tried to drink it in little tiny sips. A construction worker from Queens told me he'd been waiting all his life for me, which must've been a pretty long time because he was kind of old. A real college student, from Harlem, walked away from me when he kept asking me questions about City College and I couldn't answer them right. Go home, sweetie, he said, but I couldn't, so I tried other names and stories. I was Renee and Yolanda and Shameka. I was a record store clerk and a waitress and a newspaper photographer. It was easy to be somebody else when no one cared who you were in the first place.
I realized after a while that I didn't see Jasmine anymore. I listened for her, but all I could hear was other people talking, and the boom of music from the speakers above me. Then I heard her laugh on the other side of the bar and start to sing along with Foxy Brown, Ain't no nigga like the one I got. She was sitting on a silver bar chair, and there were guys all around her. One of them was telling her how pretty she sang, which was a lie: she had no voice to begin with, plus she was making it sound all stupid and breathy on purpose. When she saw me looking at her, she waved.
"Yo," she said, smiling big like she had the only other time I'd seen her drunk. "Serene." I'd forgotten which name I was answering to and looked at her funny for a minute. I walked closer and one of the men put his arm around me.
"She can come too," he said, and Jasmine smiled, and when she got up for real, I wondered where everyone was going.
I followed Jasmine until I realized we were leaving the club. It was like my whole body blinked. The club had been hot and sticky and outside it was almost cold. The floodlights on the block were so bright that for a minute I thought the sun must have never gone down all the way; it was that light outside.
"The hell?" I said.
"We're going to an after party," she giggled. "In the Bronx. The valet is getting their car. I was just about to look for you."
"No." I shook my head.
"Yes," she said, putting her arms around me and kissing me on the forehead. One of the guys whistled.
The valet pulled the car up, and I counted the men for the first time. There were four of them and two of us and one Mazda 626.
"There's no room," I said. "Let's go." I started to pull Jasmine's hand, but the man by the far window patted his lap, and Jasmine crawled into the car and sat there and put her arms around him.
"Room now," Jasmine said, and because I was out of excuses I got in the car, and five minutes later we were speeding up the West Side Highway. I remembered a story that had been on the news a few weeks ago. Some girl upstate had ended up in the hospital after she went home with five men she met on the bus. They didn't say on the news exactly what they'd done to her, only that she was lucky to be alive. "What was that child thinking, going anyplace with all those strangers?" my mother had said. I wanted to call my mother right then and say she wasn't, Mama, she wasn't thinking at all, one minute she was one place and the next she was another and it all happened before she could stop it.
Then I thought maybe I was overreacting. Lots of people went to other people's houses and most of them didn't end up dead. Jasmine's new friends didn't really look dangerous. They looked like they'd spent more time getting dressed than me and Jasmine had. The one Jasmine was sitting on had a sparkly diamond earring. The one next to me had on a beige linen shirt. They all smelled like cologne beneath sweat. I liked that smell. My sheets had smelled like that once after Michael took a nap in my bed, and I didn't want to wash them until it went away. I felt better. If I was going to kill somebody, I thought, I would not get all dressed up first. I would not put on a lot of perfume. When I turned away from the window to look at the people in the car again, I saw that Jasmine was kissing the man with the earring. She was kissing him deep, and I could see half her tongue going in and out of his mouth. His hands were tracing the top of her shirt. He fingered the chain she always wore around her neck, and stopped kissing her to look at it.
"Princess," he mumbled. "Are you a princess?"
Jasmine giggled. Her chain glittered like a dime at the bottom of a swimming pool.
"Are you a princess too?" the man next to me asked. He looked down at me, and I could see that his eyes were a pretty green, but bloodshot.
"No," I said. I folded my arms across my chest.
"Man, look who we got here," said the one in the passenger seat, turning around. "College girl with a attitude problem. How'd we end up with these girls again? Y'all are probably virgins, aren't you?"
"No," Jasmine said. "Like hell we are. We look like virgins to you?"
"Nah," he said, and I didn't know whether to feel pissed off or pretty.
The car stopped in front of an apartment building, and I followed them into the lobby and into the elevator, and earring guy still had his arms around Jasmine and pretty-eyes guy was still looking at me. If I'd wanted to lose my virginity to a random guy in the Bronx, I would've done it already, not just let Jasmine give it away. I knew if she saw my face, she would know how mad I was, but she had her head in earring guy's neck. The clicks and dings in the elevator seemed like they were saying something in a language I didn't speak. I thought about pulling her off of him. I thought about hitting her. They'd pushed the button for the eighth floor, but the doors opened on five. There was nobody standing there and I kept waiting for the thing that would stop us, and then I thought, Nothing will stop this but me. So I ran, out of the elevator and down the stairs and out the front door and down to the bodega on the corner.
There was a whole pile of fruit lit up outside, like what anybody really needed in the middle of the night was a mango. Inside, it was comforting just looking at the rows and rows of bread and cereal and soup all crammed together, and I stared at them for a while. There was an old man behind the counter, and I thought it was too late for him to be working, and he was looking at me like he thought it was too late for me to be alone in his store. He looked like how I would have imagined my grandfather looking if I'd known him.
"You all right?" he said. "You need some medicine? Some ginger ale?"
I shook my head, because I was looking for Jasmine to be behind me, but she wasn't.
"You need to call somebody?"
I pointed at the pay phone outside on the corner, and the man behind the counter shrugged. When I realized Jasmine wasn't running after me, I walked back outside. The door jingled at me when I opened it, and I was mad at it for sounding so happy. I didn't know who else to call at two-thirty in the morning, so I beeped Michael and pushed in the pay phone number. I was afraid at first he wouldn't call back, but he did, ten minutes later.
"Just come get me," I said, instead of explaining, and all he asked for was the street names.
I'd been leaning against the pay phone for twenty minutes when his brother's car pulled up. Michael was in the passenger's seat. He got out when he saw me, and gave me a hug.
"You all right?" he asked. "Did something happen?" I nodded, then shook my head. I was starting to feel stupid, because I knew I looked a mess, and nothing really had happened to me.
"Where's your girl?"
"Up in one of those buildings, with some guys she met at the club."
Michael's face wrinkled like it was made of clay and I had squished it. "Do we need to go get her?"
I thought of Jasmine in that man's lap, Jasmine laughing and saying Like hell we are, Jasmine letting me run out of the elevator by myself.
"No. Leave that trick where she is," I said. Once I said the words I was sorry, but it seemed like the kind of thing you couldn't take back. I wanted Michael to be mad at me, to say he was Jasmine's friend, too, and he wouldn't leave her like that, but he just shrugged at his brother and opened the car door.
"Uh-uh," said Ron, when Michael started to get in the front seat. "Let the lady up front."
I sat beside him while Michael scowled and got in the back.
"I guess we can't take you home to your mom's or you'll be in trouble, huh?" Ron asked.
I wanted to say yes, they could take me home, that I deserved to be in trouble, that I'd let my mother slap me if it meant we'd go get Jasmine and both of us could be at home sleeping in our rooms tonight, but I didn't.
"No," I said. "Can I stay at your place? I'm s'posed to be at Jasmine's."
"No doubt," he said, and squeezed my knee, stopping to look at me so hard that I wasn't even sure what I'd said, but I wanted to take that back too. I remembered my mother saying no one does you a favor who doesn't want something back sometime. Ron was driving already and I looked out the window again and listened to the radio. Even this time of night they were still playing Tupac, which they never would have been doing when he was still alive.
Inside at Michael and Ron's house, they put me on the downstairs couch and gave me a blanket. When Ron said good night and went into his bedroom in the basement, I thought maybe I'd only imagined the look he gave me earlier. I unlaced my shoes and took down my hair and curled up in the blanket, trying not to think about Jasmine and what kind of a mess I'd left her in. I thought of her laughing, thought of the look on her face when she had closed her eyes and let that man kiss her, and for a second I hated her and then a second later I couldn't remember anything I'd ever hated more than leaving her. I was sitting there in the dark when Ron came back and put an arm around me.
"You know, you're too pretty for me to leave you on the couch like that," he said, pulling me toward him. I didn't know that, but I did understand then that there was no such thing as safe, only safer; that this, if it didn't happen now, would happen later but not better. I was safer than Jasmine right now, safer than I might have been. He kissed me, hard, like he was trying to get to the last drop of something, and I kissed him back, harder, like I wanted to get it all back. The noise in my head stopped and I didn't have to think about anything but where to put all the pieces of my body next.
He grabbed my hand and led me to the bedroom, and he kissed me again and pushed my skirt around my hips. "You're beautiful," he said, which must've been a lie by this time of night. I sat on the bed and pulled my underwear off and realized they were Jasmine's. I thought how mad she'd be that it was me and not her doing this. I kissed him and he kept going and I didn't stop him.
Afterward I was embarrassed because he was embarrassed, and I knew I couldn't stay there, but instead of going back to the couch I walked upstairs to Michael's room and climbed into his bed. He smelled the way I remembered him. I just wanted to touch him, really, and not to wake up alone. But he thought I meant something by it, and I let him. I let him kiss me until he felt under my shirt and his fingers found my bra hook, which was still undone because I hadn't bothered to fasten it.
"What happened?" he asked.
"Nothing," I said.
"Right," he said. He turned away from me and faced the wall. I looked at the back of his ears and thought about a few hours earlier, about him holding my wrist, telling me to be careful with myself. I reached to pull him toward me. I remembered the feeling of his thumb and index finger right there on my pulse as I had nodded yes.
What People are Saying About This
"Danielle Evans's whipsmart first story collection charts the liminal years between childhood and the condition dubiously known as being a grown-up... Fiercely independent, all of Evans's characters struggle for a place in a world intent of fencing them out. But as her title suggests, the biggest obstacles they face are often their own selves."
-New York Times Book Review
"Whether she's observing people who work at Ruby Tuesday or Harvard students, Evans is a startlingly good sociocultural mimic. Each story shares a particular female voice: tough, pragmatic, knowing, snappy. . . . There are books that capture our world perfectly, like a scrim over a stage. And then there are books that surprise the audience and go somewhere new, somewhere completely unpredictable. In this collection, Evans paints a picture, sometimes ripping through the fabric. One wonders where she will go next."
-The Boston Globe
"Danielle Evans' blisteringly smart short stories offer fresh perspective on being young and black in America. From a vandalizing valedictorian to a rejected biracial child, her characters triumph by surviving without forgetting."
"Stories about the trade-offs of early adulthood from a new writer with a fresh, appealing voice... Many of these eight wonderfully melancholy stories mostly set along the East Coast deal with loss-of family, of love, of innocence-and all explore the chasm between what others see and who we really are...Most of Evans' characters are African American, but she doesn't dwell on race, focusing instead on the transitory awkwardness inherent in young adulthood. Readers will understand her characters' mistakes long before they've been made-and recognize that when we have to choose, it is rarely our better selves who win."
-People (4 stars)
"The most vivid characters in Danielle Evans's story collection are in- betweeners: between girlhood and womanhood; between the black middle class and Ivy League privilege; between iffy boyfriends and those even less reliable; between an extended family and living on your own. To say they're caught between worlds isn't quite accurate, though; they tend to be hard-headed, sadder but wiser and, most of all, funny."
-The New York Times
"This striking debut collection Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self offers rich slices of African-American life... [Evans's] stories are bolstered by memorable images... Evans's book, meanwhile, carries a strong scent of freshness and promise."
"Lit's new It Girl. Critics raved about Danielle Evans's talent solely based on 'Virgins' her bold coming-of-age story...Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self, her eagerly awaited first collection, proves them right. [Evans] will win you over with eight thoroughly modern, funny and tender stories."
"With polished short stories plumbing the intersection of adolescence, race, hormones, and emotional instability, the twentysomething Iowa-workshop graduate threatens to become the season's hot young MFA discovery."
-New York Magazine
"Danielle Evans's considerable talents are in evidence on every page of this impressive debut. She finds her often surprising dramatic material in the unexpected asides of modern life, with results that are intense, intelligent, humane, and funny. I look forward to reading more."
-Daniel Alarcon, author of Lost City Radio
"Evans's knife-sharp wit and tender but unflinching eye create a range of characters who are entirely sympathetic, even as they tumble headlong into their own mistakes."
-V.V. Ganeshananthan, author of Love Marriage
"Danielle Evans is funny as hell. Which only makes all the heartbreak in these stories more surprising and satisfying. The young women in this collection are always on the edge of real trouble but don't be fooled, they're the dangerous ones. Written with wonderful clarity and a novelist's sense of scope, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self is a fabulous literary debut."
-Victor LaValle, author of Big Machine
"Danielle Evans's stories are fresh, arresting, real. The young women and men in them could be sitting across from you on the subway or strolling past you on a college campus. And the young woman who brings them to us is a writer to watch."
-Martha Southgate, author of The Fall of Rome
"Quietly magnetic, Evans's voice draws us into richly-charged worlds where innocence isn't lost but escaped, and where pieces of the past reassemble in the present with the inevitable geometry of kaleidoscope glass. Delivered with a light touch that belies their maturity, these morally complex stories mark the arrival of a gifted new author."
-Sana Krasikov, author of One More Year
"Armed with no easy answers but plenty of bad choices, the talented, too-smart- for-their-own-good protagonists are painfully aware of the consequences of their actions, even when they think they have no better choice. . . . The moral ambiguity of Evans's achingly believable world finds its best expression in the devastating final story, 'Robert E. Lee is Dead,' in which the brainy black cheerleader, CeeCee, jeopardizes her own high-school graduation with a pointless act of vandalism. Although she is instigated by her closest friend Geena, whose future is less bright, CeeCee's decision is her own. She shares this characteristic with the other survivors in this arresting book, along with the regret. A welcome new talent-with a funny and dark take on being black in America."
I've never been a big fan of short stories. They remind me of the 45 records I used to buy when I was a teenager. On the "A" side was the hit song you wanted to purchase, but the "B" side was usually a song you had never heard or didn't like but the music companies weren't going to sell you two "A" songs on one 45. BEFORE YOU SUFFOCATE YOUR OWN FOOL SELF is a wonderful book of short stories that doesn't have any "B" sides; they're all "A"s. Danielle Evans has written stories that deal with the difficulties of family life, friendships, reaching adulthood and inequality in equal measure for African-American and biracial protagonists. There is honesty, pain and beauty in each of the stories. My favorite was "SNAKES", the story of a young bi-racial girl's summer with her white grandmother. Ms. Evans' characters find hope and joy despite their heartbreaking situations making BEFORE YOU SUFFOCATE YOUR OWN FOOL SELF a delight to read. Lynn Kimmerle
Danielle Evans has hit the ball out of the park with Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self. From start to finish, there are no bad stories in this book. The first short, Virgins, immerses you in the world of fifteen year old Erica and her friends Jasmine and Michael. It's written in such a way that you immediately remember what it was like to be their age and in a rush to grow up. Snakes tells the story of a young woman on the road to success who confronts her painful past and the summer she spent with her grandmother. While it would have been easier for the author to write strictly from the female point of view, in Someone Ought to Tell Her There's Nowhere to Go, she tackles the story of a young male soldier returning from war. His re-entrance into the world he left isn't easy and leads him to make questionable, yet seemingly harmless, decisions. My favorite of all the shorts is Robert E. Lee is Dead. If you've ever been the good girl, the smart girl, the nerdy girl and wished you could gain entry into the popular crowd, this story will resonate with you. Crystal and Gina are best friends, but while Crystal is smart as a whip, school is just a place to see and be seen for Gina. When it comes to popularity, no one is more popular than Gina. A chance to make herself popular among the athletes and cheerleaders arises and Crystal rises to the occasion. Her place in their world is shaky and can be snatched any time Gina says so. What did you like about this book? I absolutely loved the variety in stories and in characters. There are eight stories in total and each is completely different, yet just as good as the rest. What didn't you like about this book? I honestly can't think of a thing. What could the author do to improve this book? Not a thing.
I love short stories, but I must admit I often am left wanting to know more about the characters in each story...especially the first story, Virgins.
I'm typically not a fan of short stories but Danielle Evan brought the characters to life in each story. I wasn't left wanting for closure at the end of the stories. It's amazing how she was able to close out each story with leaving you wanting a better ending. Several of the stories could easily be turned in to full novels.
The title is what attracted me to this book. I was able to download a sample of the book and read it through my nookbook. I enjoyed what I read and purchased the rest of the book. I was disappointed. There are nine short stories and I truly enjoyed maybe three. I had to make an effort to finish the book.
I¿m not all that crazy about volumes of short stories unless they are very, very good. (Flannery O¿Connor for example.) I was willing to take a flyer on Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self given the high praise the young author Danielle Evans had received, but I remained skeptical. It was a true pleasure to find that several of her stories fall into the category of very, very good indeed, and even her weaker stories are engaging. She focuses on characters who are balancing between shifting worlds ¿ many are teenage girls in that odd realm where adolescence shades into adulthood, one is a soldier returning from Iraq to try and pick up with his life, another a girl with a white mother and African American father who must spend the summer with her wealthy, Palisade Hills Country Club-member grandmother, one an African American student at Columbia University watching as her white roommate finances her education by serving as an egg donor to childless couples. The complexities of race and class in America are themes throughout Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self, but Evans is never polemic, clichéd, or tedious. She is relentlessly honest with her characters and with the reader, unsentimental but kind. When you watch the people in her stories make terrible decisions, you realize that you could have found yourself making exactly the same mistakes.The first story, ¿Virgins¿ was originally published in the The Paris Review and it is honed and polished to perfection ¿ it shows the evidence of a young author having worked and re-worked a narrative until every word hums like a vibrating tuning fork. It¿s arguably the best of the pieces in the book and I¿m sure it¿s no accident the volume begins with this story. ¿Robert E. Lee is Dead¿ is the final story and to my mind it¿s almost as strong as ¿Virgins.¿ Both look at a pair of teenage girls at an irrevocable moment of transition. Both are pitch perfect and deeply moving. I would highly recommend Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self to just about anyone, as long as you enjoy fiction, you¿re going to enjoy this.
Danielle Evans is truly a rising literary star. "Before you Suffocate..." is a brilliant gem of work, one I was truly happy to read. I couldn't put it down, and from someone who vastly prefers novels, that is a high compliment. The characters were real and the writing just made them crystal clear. I admit that when I first received the book, I was thinking, another minority themed short story collection, prepare to be made to feel guilty, but this book was nothing like that. It was approachable and I was able to identify with the characters and their plights and truly feel sympathy and empathy with these characters. Gorgeous, Ms. Evans. I eagerly look forward to more of your work.
Danielle Evans gives us an amazing debut with eight short stories which mainly focus on the experiences of African-American women. The first story is ¿Virgins,¿ which was initially published in the 2007 Paris Review, and follows two friends who have differing points of view about the right way to lose your virginity. However, one girl¿s right way puts her in a dangerous situation.The story that stayed with me the most was ¿Snakes,¿ where Tara, a bi-racial teen, is sent to visit with her white grandmother and cousin for summer. Her grandmother doesn¿t hide her preference for Tara¿s cousin (and disdain for Tara¿s brown skin and cornrows). The grandmother even goes so far as to introduce Tara as being adopted to her friends at the country club. This story had a thought-provoking, near-tragic twist at the end.Another story ¿Harvest¿ explores the racial and cultural attitudes towards reproductive issues. Evans juxtaposes the preference of fertility clinics for high SAT-achieving, blonde, white college students (no brown or black women need apply) versus the pregnancy of a black roommate of one of the egg donors.I also enjoyed ¿Robert E. Lee is Dead¿ about a black nerdy, honor student and valedictorian dealing with peer pressure and the stress of trying to be and remain popular.Evans provides a refreshing take on race, gender, and class through this collection and I definitely look forward to reading more by her.
I cannot compete with Ron Charles's review of Danielle Evans¿s BEFORE YOU SUFFOCATE YOUR OWN FOOL SELF; he work a bacon hat. However, I will add that it is a perfect collection of short stories for the high school English teacher looking to engage some reluctant readers. Despite the seriousness of the subject matter, the stories contain a lightness it is hard to label. Though I no longer teach in a ¿brick and mortar¿ classroom and the virtual school which employs me provides me with materials and curriculum, I still consider how everything I read, see, and hear may be used in education. I get phantom pains of a sort.The pains get a little worse when I hear a student tell me he does not like to read or write. In my capacity as a virtual English teacher, I must make welcome calls to all my students. One with whom I spoke this week informed me he did not like to read. I said, ¿As an English teacher, a writer, and a bookseller, you¿re killing me.¿ We laughed, but really? He nearly killed me.I¿m not at death¿s door, though, because this particular student does not like to read. No, the risk is that I will now exhaust myself by spending countless hours trying to figure out what books he might like, how I can reach him, hoping one of the non-fiction selections embedded in the course will suck him into the vortex. It¿s a puzzle with a similar theme I have solved in the past.The age old debate about altruism vs. self-interest plays out here. Over the years I have ransacked bookshelves, twisted myself into comic staged reading knots, and as of late, tweeted to hunt down books and/or inspire the spark of reading passion in my charges. Of course, I want my students to love reading, to learn to pick books that suit them, to go outside their safety (?) net of zombie-filled tales. I would not be allowed to wear my English teacher beanie if these things were not true.Let me clear, though. I run the risk of ¿suffocating my own fool self¿ if I cannot find something a student loves or even begrudgingly likes. It is a matter of life and death . . . for me.
Excellent collection of short stories, mainly focusing on African-American women in multi-racial environments. Many of the characters are on the cusp of change - high school to college, moving into or out of relationships, and dealing with their dysfunctional families. The writing is VERY good, Evans' observations of people witty, sharp, yet loving. This may be the best debut short fiction collection by an African- American since Edward Jones' _Lost in the City_. I loved it.
This book is a collection of eight short stories with the unifying element of young, African-American or mixed race characters trying to find their way in modern American culture. When I read short stories, inevitably some affect me more than others; this book was no exception. The best of this bunch were:Virgins: two 16-year-old girls, tired of small-town life, go clubbing in New York City and find themselves growing up a little too fast.Snakes: Tara, a mixed race girl, spends a summer with her white grandmother and cousin. She finds herself in the middle of long-standing family tension, and one small but dramatic act results in years of emotional pain.Someone Ought to Tell Her: Georgie, recently returned from Iraq, offers to babysit his ex-girlfriend's daughter when her regular childcare arrangements fall through. The arrangement fills an emotional void for both Georgie and the daughter, but ultimately results in a difficult conflict.Unfortunately, in a couple of stories I found glaring factual inaccuracies which detracted from the author's credibility. Sometimes this completely ruins my reading experience. In this case, I loved Evans' voice, and her ability to quickly create pictures of her characters in my imagination. I'm sure we will see more from this promising young author.
This was my first book received through the Early Reviewers program. What a delight. This is a highly engaging debut collection of short stories. They are largely to do with the challenges of young African American women trying to somehow fit into their surroundings, peer groups. The writing is clear and the characters are drawn well, without sentimentality. A highly recommended read
This was a good collection of short stories. I agree with the comparison to ZZ Packer, although Packer's work seems even more complexly nuanced. Of course, since both are Black/African-American women writers of a similar generation, I can see why they are compared. I enjoyed the stories and think they were written solidly. I recommend Before You Suffocate Your Fool Self to mainstream readers across the board.
I loved these stories--they are honest, real, and perceptive. A lot of them made me cry. I was sad when I read the book, so it wasn't hard, but so many of the lines resonated with me. These are stories that talk about hard truths and yet they are not preachy. And the characters stay with you after the story is over.
I was prepared to like this short-story collection by American University Creative Writing Professor Danielle Evans, but I ended up falling hopelessly in love with it - the characters, the settings, the dialogue- just about everything! Incredibly funny, often painfully touching and real, with well-crafted plots and contemporary urban and suburban settings that should resonate with many. This is a young author that I will be following closely.
Evans' collection of short stories deals with themes of choices made and abdicated, loss, changing understandings of the world, and shifting loyalties. In other words, whether her characters are teens or twenty-somethings, these stories are about growing up. They are painful and poignant, revealing individuals full of doubt, insecurity, and pain, who are never-the-less capable of growth and understanding, sometimes despite themselves.
This was an excellent book for a debut. I think every woman can relate to one of the characters in at least one short story or know someone else who has encountered similar experiences or thoughts. Snakes was my favorite story out of all of them. The characters emotions were displayed vividly. The story also had a bittersweet ending. The only other author that I've actually enjoyed reading short stories by is J. California Cooper. Now I look forward to reading more of Ms. Evans work. I'd also be interested in seeing if she creates a novel or at least a novella from one of the stories.
This is a really amazing collection of short stories - I couldn't put it down, and I didn't want it to end. Each of the eight stories is sharp and surprising, shrewdly observed and heartbreakingly told by narrators who don't really have a sense of how heartbreaking their own stories are.All of Evans's narrators are struggling to navigate between two worlds, it seems to me: between black and white, between inside and outside, between family and friends, between rich and not, between staying and leaving. They're all fumbling, inexpertly, failing and compromising and making the wrong choices for the right reasons. They're well- and economically-drawn, with distinct voices and complicated motivations, subject to confusing expectations and forces beyond their control and sometimes even beyond their comprehension. Evans's writing is just beautiful, and her collection is the kind of thing that makes one thing the short story isn't a doomed art form. Read this book and tell everyone you know about it. it's fantastic.
This is a powerful and worthwhile collection of short stories--graceful, heartbreaking, and humorous. Evans has perfect pitch here, and her stories matter in an everday way; instead of revolving stories around tragic or sudden events as so many authors do, she explores the daily explorations and traumas that we experience every day. In other words, the characters here aren't dying or watching death--they're just living and watching life. As a result, while the collection as a whole speaks to growing up and to issues of race and gender, it also comes across as more real and true to experience than any other collection of short stories I've read, without becoming tiresome or repetitive in theme or character. The characters and subjects are varied as well, so that reading this book through as a collection works well. I would say that the ordering of the stories feels somewhat off--the first two stories are clearly the weakest, so the book has a weaker start than it could--but that's the one criticism I'd make. So, if you're not blown away by the first stories, just keep going--those first ones are by no means bad, bu the book just keeps getting better as you move farther in. Highly highly recommended. This is likely my new favorite volume of short fiction, and some of the stories here are ideal for examples for young creative writing classes, showing that you can indeed write what you know, and still have something powerful and new to say about it.
It¿s a joy to read a book of short stories by a black author who uses intelligent young black characters in very sassy and smart way. The protagonists in this collection are working their way through relationships among both family and friends. Each story is different enough that the reader feels a sense of how these characters view themselves, how they live their lives, and how others see them. I like the variety of the stories and the ability to see the world through the eyes of such self-assured black individuals. These stories by Evans remind me of the short story collection in Drinking Coffee Elsewhere by Z Z Packer, another excellent black author. Individually all Evans' stories were good, but my favorite was ¿Snakes¿ which is about a biracial (white mom/black dad) 9-year old who spends one summer with her grandmother and cousin while her parents are in Brazil working on research. It¿s tough enough negotiating the road of racial attitudes, but this biracial family has its own stresses.¿Jellyfish¿ is the story of a father who tries to reconnect with his daughter. Always late, never there for her when she needs him, dad William now has a new plan for bringing his daughter Eva closer.There was another story whose ending I liked the best. Without telling you the outcome, I¿ll just say that ¿The King of a Vast Empire¿ is a story about a brother and sister who get together at the onset of the Thanksgiving holiday.As an added bonus, I was delighted to learn that the author of this book is a Creative Writing professor at American University in Washington, DC. Hey! That¿s my alma mater!! What's surprising is that Danielle Evans is just 26 years old. I predict a great writing future for this talented debut author. I hope that this book¿s success will translate into even more written work that the author shares with the public. Whether or not a novel is forthcoming, it is nevertheless clear that this is an author to watch.
This book of short stories leaves me very unsatified...the endings just end...no resolution to the problems...too many unanswered questions...if this had been a book I paid for rather than won on Early Reviewers, I'd have been unhappy that I had wasted my money...actually, I think the best thing about this book is the title.
This collection from Danielle Evans contains some well-crafted and insightful stories, most of them about adolescence. Evans is adept at colloquial dialogue and chooses her scenes well. "Snakes" and "Robert E. Lee is Dead" stood out as particularly strong.
If this debut is any indication, Danielle Evans has a very bright literary future ahead of her. Her stories express not only a young woman¿s frustration with the problems of racial and social inequities, but also the honest way in which the void of adolescent insecurities often overpowers even the most serious of those adult-world inequities. The transparent honesty of Evans¿ writing is refreshing. So often the literary world is confronted with jaded authors who, amid their arguments for equality, have lost their sense of self. One also encounters the occasional indignant writer for whom the sorority of adolescence is a mere effect of racial and socioeconomic inequities. What we have here is an expression of the sadness often generated by youth, and what is born of that sadness¿who it makes us as we become young adults, and what we bring with us to shape our future.Together, the stories map a course over the inconstant terrain of youth, from the uncertainty of a young girl at odds with her own grandmother to the discomfort of a young woman confronted with her youth in the form of both a younger cousin, and a past lover. Race and class are prevalent in all of these pieces, but they play second fiddle to the girl¿s emotional journey. On a personal note, there was so much of this work, of these stories, that I identified with as a woman, and I¿m sure there are a lot of girls, a lot of young women, who will feel the same. There¿s something universal about her writing Almost every story had something in it for me ¿ whether it was as simple as the mention of a Friendly¿s Reese¿s Pieces Happy Face Sundae (of which I have eaten many in my past) or as complex as an older female relative who shuns the young girl. The collective effect is that of the juxtaposition of hope against hopelessness, the portents of this author¿s promising future.
I usually do not enjoy short stories very much, but this collection was very cohesive. Each story was very well-written with fleshed-out characters. The overarching theme of contemporary race relations and the everyday African American experience was interesting and insightful.
While the majority of the main characters in this book were young, teenage and twenties, the plots transcended age issues to what is love, friendship, family. These were presented with honesty, complexity, and without answers. This was a superb book that I recommend without reservation.