Sadie

Sadie

by Courtney Summers

Hardcover

$16.19 $17.99 Save 10% Current price is $16.19, Original price is $17.99. You Save 10%. View All Available Formats & Editions
Choose Expedited Shipping at checkout for guaranteed delivery by Thursday, November 21

Overview

A New York Times bestseller!

A Booklist Top 10 YA Book for Adult Readers

One of the Best YA Novels of 2018 by Publishers Weekly

One of B&N Teen Blog's Best YA Books of 2018

Bustle's Best Young Adult Books of 2018

Good Morning America's Best Books of 2018

In NPR's Guide to 2018's Greatest Reads

In Paste's 30 Best Young Adult Novels of 2018

Nominated for YALSA's 2019 Quick Pick for Reluctant Readers

4 Starred Reviews from Kirkus, School Library Journal, Booklist, Publishers Weekly!

"Sadie: a novel for readers of any age, and a character as indelible as a scar. Flat-out dazzling." A. J. Finn, #1 New York Times bestselling author of The Woman in the Window

"Sadie is an electrifying, high-stakes road trip. Clear your schedule. You're not going anywhere until you've reached the end." —Stephanie Perkins, New York Times bestselling author of There's Someone Inside Your House and Anna and the French Kiss

"A haunting, gut-wrenching, and relentlessly compelling read." —Veronica Roth, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Carve the Mark and the Divergent series

A missing girl on a journey of revenge. A Serial—like podcast following the clues she's left behind. And an ending you won't be able to stop talking about.

Sadie hasn't had an easy life. Growing up on her own, she's been raising her sister Mattie in an isolated small town, trying her best to provide a normal life and keep their heads above water.

But when Mattie is found dead, Sadie's entire world crumbles. After a somewhat botched police investigation, Sadie is determined to bring her sister's killer to justice and hits the road following a few meager clues to find him.

When West McCray—a radio personality working on a segment about small, forgotten towns in America—overhears Sadie's story at a local gas station, he becomes obsessed with finding the missing girl. He starts his own podcast as he tracks Sadie's journey, trying to figure out what happened, hoping to find her before it's too late.

Courtney Summers has written the breakout book of her career. Sadie is propulsive and harrowing and will keep you riveted until the last page.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781250105714
Publisher: St. Martin''s Publishing Group
Publication date: 09/04/2018
Pages: 320
Sales rank: 15,109
Product dimensions: 5.30(w) x 8.40(h) x 1.20(d)
Age Range: 13 - 17 Years

About the Author

Courtney Summers lives and writes in Canada. She is the author of several critically acclaimed novels for young adults, including Cracked Up to Be, Some Girls Are, Fall for Anything, This is Not a Test, All the Rage and most recently, Sadie, a New York Times bestseller, Indie bestseller, Odyssey Award winner, Audie Award Winner and Edgar Award nominee, appearing on more than 30 Best Of lists in 2018. Learn more at courtneysummers.ca.

Read an Excerpt

CHAPTER 1

THE GIRLS

EPISODE 1

[THE GIRLS THEME]

WEST McCRAY:

Welcome to Cold Creek, Colorado. Population: eight hundred.

Do a Google Image search and you'll see its main street, the barely beating heart of that tiny world, and find every other building vacant or boarded up. Cold Creek's luckiest — the gainfully employed — work at the local grocery store, the gas station and a few other staple businesses along the strip. The rest have to look a town or two over for opportunity for themselves and for their children; the closest schools are in Parkdale, forty minutes away. They take in students from three other towns.

Beyond its main street, Cold Creek arteries out into worn and chipped Monopoly houses that no longer have a place upon the board. From there lies a rural sort of wilderness. The highway out is interrupted by veins of dirt roads leading to nowhere as often as they lead to pockets of dilapidated houses or trailer parks in even worse shape. In the summertime, a food bus comes with free lunches for the kids until the school year resumes, guaranteeing at least two subsidized meals a day.

There's a quiet to it that's startling if you've lived your whole life in the city, like I have. Cold Creek is surrounded by a beautiful, uninterrupted expanse of land and sky that seem to go on forever. Its sunsets are spectacular: electric golds and oranges, pinks and purples, natural beauty unspoiled by the insult of skyscrapers. The sheer amount of space is humbling, almost divine. It's hard to imagine feeling trapped here.

But most people here do.

COLD CREEK RESIDENT [FEMALE]:

You live in Cold Creek because you were born here, and if you're born here, you're probably never getting out.

WEST McCRAY:

That's not entirely true. There have been some success stories, college graduates who moved on and found well-paying jobs in distant cities, but they tend to be the exception and not the rule. Cold Creek is home to a quality of life we're raised to aspire beyond, if we're born privileged enough to have the choice.

Here, everyone's working so hard to care for their families and keep their heads above water that, if they wasted time on the petty dramas, scandals and personal grudges that seem to define small towns in our nation's imagination, they would not survive. That's not to say there's no drama, scandal, or grudge — just that those things are usually more than residents of Cold Creek can afford to care about.

Until it happened.

The husk of an abandoned, turn-of-the-century one-room schoolhouse sits three miles outside of town, taken by fire. The roof is caved in and what's left of the walls are charred. It sits next to an apple orchard that's slowly being reclaimed by the nature that surrounds it: young overgrowth, new trees, wildflowers.

There's almost something romantic about it, something that feels like respite from the rest of the world. It's the perfect place to be alone with your thoughts. At least it was, before.

May Beth Foster — who you'll come to know as this series goes on — took me there herself. I asked to see it. She's a plump, white, sixty-eight-year-old woman with salt-and-pepper hair. She has a grandmotherly way about her, right down to a voice that's so invitingly familiar it warms you from the inside out. May Beth is manager of Sparkling River Estates trailer park, a lifelong resident of Cold Creek, and when she talks, people listen. More often than not, they accept whatever she says as the truth.

MAY BETH FOSTER:

Just about ... here.

This is where they found the body.

911 DISPATCHER [PHONE]:

911 dispatch. What's your emergency?

WEST McCRAY:

On October third, forty-seven-year-old Carl Earl was on his way to work, a factory in Cofield. It's an hour's drive from Cold Creek. He'd barely begun his commute when he noticed black smoke marring the early morning horizon.

CARL EARL:

Started out like any other day. Least, I think it did. I imagine I got up, had breakfast and kissed my wife on my way out the door because that's what I do every morning. But I honestly can't remember a thing before I saw the smoke and everything that happened after that ... well.

I wish I could forget it.

CARL EARL [PHONE]:

Yeah, my name's Carl Earl and I just want to report a fire. There's an abandoned schoolhouse off Milner's Road and it's all lit up. It's about three miles east of Cold Creek. I was just driving by and I noticed it. I pulled over to call. It's lookin' pretty bad.

911 DISPATCHER [PHONE]:

Okay, Carl, we're going to send someone out.

Are there any other people around? Anyone in need of assistance you can see?

CARL EARL [PHONE]:

Just me out here, far as I can tell, but I might not be close enough ... I could maybe get a little closer and see —

911 DISPATCHER [PHONE]:

Sir — Carl — please stay clear of the fire. I need you to do that for me, all right?

CARL EARL [PHONE]:

Oh, yeah, no — I wasn't going to —

CARL EARL:

So I did as I was told, even though a part of me wanted to play hero. I'm still not sure what compelled me to stick around because I couldn't afford to miss the work, but I stayed 'til the cops and the firemen came. I watched 'em go at it until the flames were under control and that's when I noticed ... just beyond the schoolhouse there, I saw — I was the, uh — I was the one that saw her first.

WEST McCRAY:

The body of Mattie Southern was discovered between the burning schoolhouse and the apple orchard, just out of sight. She'd been reported missing three days earlier and here she was, found.

Dead.

I've decided the gruesome details of what was uncovered in that orchard will not be a part of this show. While the murder, the crime, might have captured your initial interest, its violence and brutality do not exist for your entertainment — so please don't ask us. The details of this case are easy enough to find online. In my opinion, you only really need to know two things.

The first is the cause of her death was blunt force trauma to the head.

The second is this:

MAY BETH FOSTER:

She was only thirteen years old.

CARL EARL:

I don't sleep great anymore, since it happened.

WEST McCRAY:

Mattie left behind a nineteen-year-old sister, Sadie; a surrogate grandmother, May Beth; and her mother, Claire; but Claire's been out of the picture for a while.

I first heard about the Southern murder at a gas station outside Abernathy, about thirty minutes from Cold Creek. I was with my crew in the eastern plains and we'd just wrapped interviews for a segment of an episode of Always Out There dedicated to profiling small towns in America. You know, the kind on a rambling decline. We wanted their residents to tell us what those places lost, not because we thought we could restore them to their former glory but simply so you knew they existed. We wanted to give them a voice before they disappeared.

JOE HALLORAN:

It's a nice thought, anyway. That somebody gives a damn.

WEST McCRAY:

That was Joe Halloran, one of the Abernathy residents we interviewed. I wasn't thinking about his words when I was standing behind the guy ahead of me at the gas station, listening as he told the clerk exactly what happened to the Southern kid. The grisly facts didn't inspire me to stick around. My crew and I had gotten what we came for and we were ready to go back home. It was a terrible thing, sure, but we live in a world that has no shortage of terrible things. You can't stop for all of them.

A year later, I was sitting in my office in New York. It was October, a year to the day Mattie died, actually, the third — and my attention kept wandering from my computer screen to the window, where I could see the Empire State Building. I liked my job at WNRK, and I liked my life in the city, but maybe some part of me — the same part that let me walk away from Mattie's story the first time without a second thought — was overdue for a shake-up.

It arrived in the form of a phone call.

MAY BETH FOSTER [PHONE]:

Is this West McCray?

WEST McCRAY [PHONE]:

It is. How can I help you?

MAY BETH FOSTER [PHONE]:

This is May Beth Foster. Joe Halloran told me you give a damn.

WEST McCRAY:

There'd been no new developments in the Mattie Southern case, no suspects named to the crime. The investigation seemed to have ground to a halt. But that wasn't the reason May Beth contacted me.

MAY BETH FOSTER [PHONE]:

I need your help.

WEST McCRAY:

Three months ago, in mid-July, she'd gotten a call from a police station in Farfield, Colorado, a town many, many miles from Cold Creek. They'd found a 2007 black Chevy parked on the side of the road and inside of it, a green bag full of personal affects belonging to Mattie's older sister, Sadie Hunter, who had disappeared that June. Sadie herself was nowhere to be found. She still hasn't been found. After a cursory investigation, Sadie was declared a runaway by local law enforcement, and, having exhausted all possible avenues available to her, May Beth Foster reached out to me. I was her last hope. She thought maybe I could bring Sadie back home to her alive. Because Sadie had to be alive, because —

MAY BETH FOSTER [PHONE]:

I can't take another dead girl.

CHAPTER 2

sadie

I find the car on craigslist.

It doesn't matter what kind, I don't think, but if you need more than that to work with, it's boxy, midnight black. The kind of color that disappears when it's next to any other. Backseat big enough to sleep in. It was offered up in a hastily written ad in a sea of hastily written ads, but this one riddled with spelling errors that suggested a special kind of desperation. Make an offer, pleas settled it for me. It means I need money now which means someone's in trouble or they're hungry or they've got a chemical kind of itch. It means I've got the advantage, so what else can I do but take it?

It doesn't occur to me that meeting someone on a road outside of town to buy a car for any amount of money I'm willing to pay might not be the safest thing in the world but that's only because what I'm going to do once I have the car is even more dangerous than that.

"You could die," I say, just to see if the clean weight of those words off my tongue will somehow shock their reality into me.

It doesn't.

I could die.

I grab my green canvas backpack off the floor, shrug it over my shoulders and run my thumb over my bottom lip. May Beth gave me blueberries last night and I ate them for breakfast when I woke up today. I'm not sure if they've stained my mouth and I have a hard enough time with good first impressions as it is.

The screen door on the trailer is rusted out, sparks a whine into all our surrounding Nowhere That Matters, but if you need a visual, picture a place far, far less than suburbia and then imagine me, a few more rungs down that ladder living in a trailer rented from Fed-Me-Blueberries May Beth for as long as I've been alive. I live in a place that's only good for leaving, is all that needs to be said about it, and I don't let myself look back. Doesn't matter if I want to, it's just better if I don't.

I grab my bike and ride my way out of town, briefly stopping on the green bridge over Wicker's River where I stare down at the water and feel the dizzying pull of its raging current in my gut. I dig through my bag, pushing aside clothes, bottles of water, some potato chips and my wallet until I find my cell phone tangled up in a ball of underwear. Cheap piece of plastic; doesn't even have a touchscreen. I throw it in the water and then I get back on my bike and ride out to Meddler's Road, off the highway, to meet the woman who wrote the craigslist ad. Her name is Becki with an i. She'd write that, with an i, like I couldn't see it for myself in every email she sent. She's standing next to the boxy, midnight-black car, one hand rested on its hood and the other on her pregnant belly. Behind her, another car is parked, a little newer. A man sits at the wheel with his arm hanging out the open window and he's tense until he sees me and then all his tension seems to melt away. It's offensive. I'm dangerous.

You shouldn't underestimate people, I want to call out. I have a knife.

It's true. There's a switchblade in my back pocket, a leftover from one of my mother's boyfriends, Keith. Long time ago. He had the nicest voice of all of them — so soft it was almost fuzzy — but he was not a nice man.

"Lera?" Becki asks, because that's the name I gave her. It's my middle name. It's easier to say than my own. Becki surprises me, the way she sounds. Like a scraped knee. Longtime smoker, I'd bet. I nod and take the cash-fatted envelope from my pocket and hold it out. Eight hundred in all. Okay, so she countered my initial offer of five but I know it's a good deal. I'm more or less paying for the repairs they made on the body. Becki says I should get a good year out of it at least. "You sounded a lot older in your email."

I shrug and extend my arm a little farther. Take the money, Becki, I want to say, before I ask you what you need it for. Because the man in the car does look pretty itchy; unfixed. I know that look. I'd know it anywhere, on anyone. I could see it in the dark.

Becki rubs her swollen belly and moves a little closer.

"Your mama know you're out here?" she asks and I settle on a shrug, which seems to satisfy her until suddenly it doesn't anymore. She frowns, looking me up and down. "No, she don't. Why'd she let you come out here all alone to buy a car?"

It's not a question I can shake, nod, or shrug to. I lick my lips and steel myself for the fight. I have a knife, I want to tell the thing that likes to wrap its hands around my voice.

"My m-mom's d-d-d —"

The more I d-d-d the redder her face gets, the less she knows where to look. Not at me, not directly in my eyes. My throat feels tight, too tight, choked, and the only way I can free myself is if I stop attempting to connect the letters altogether. No matter how hard I try in front of Becki, they'll never connect. I'm only fluent when I'm alone.

"— ead."

The stutter's hold loosens.

I breathe.

"Jesus," Becki says and I know it's not because of the inherent sadness of what I've just told her, it's because of the broken way it came out of my mouth. She steps back a little because that shit is catching, you know, and if she gets it, there's a 100 percent chance she'll pass it on to her fetus. "Should you — I mean, can you drive?"

It's one of the more subtle ways someone has asked me if I'm stupid, but that doesn't make it any less maddening coming from a woman who can't even spell the word please. I tuck the envelope back in my pocket, let that speak for me. Mattie used to say it was my stubbornness, not my stutter, that was my worst quality, but one wouldn't exist without the other. Still. I can afford the risk of pretending Becki's ignorance is more than I'm willing to fork over for her used-up car. She laughs a little, embarrassed. Says, "What am I talking about? Of course you can ..." And again, less convincingly: "Of course you can."

"Yeah," I say, because not every word I speak turns itself into pieces. The vocal normalcy relaxes Becki and she quits wasting my time, shows me the car still works by bringing the engine alive. She tells me the spring on the trunk is busted and jokes she'll let me keep the stick they use to prop it open at no extra charge.

I hmm and uh-huh my way through the transaction until it's official and then I sit on the hood of my new car and watch them reverse out, turning left onto the highway. I twirl the car key around my finger while the early morning heat slowly envelops me. The bugs find me an affront to their territory and make a feast of my pale white, freckled skin. The dry, dusty smell of road tickles my nostrils, speaking to the part of me that's ready to go, so I slide off the car and roll my bike into the brush, watching it fall unspectacularly on its side.

May Beth gives me blueberries sometimes, but she also collects expired license plates, displaying them proudly inside the shed behind her double-wide. All different colors and states, sometimes countries. May Beth has so many license plates, I don't think she'll miss two. The registration stickers are courtesy of old Mrs. Warner, three trailers down from mine. She's too frail to drive and doesn't need them anymore.

I muddy the plates up and wipe my dirty palms on my shorts as I round the car and get in the driver's side. The seats are soft and low and a cigarette burn marks the space between my legs. I slip the key into the ignition and the motor growls. I push my foot against the gas and the car rolls over the uneven terrain, following the same path out Becki took, until I reach the highway and then I go in the opposite direction.

(Continues…)


Excerpted from "Sadie"
by .
Copyright © 2018 Courtney Summers.
Excerpted by permission of St. Martin's Press.
All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.
Excerpts are provided by Dial-A-Book Inc. solely for the personal use of visitors to this web site.

Table of Contents

Title Page,
Copyright Notice,
The Girls,
Sadie,
The Girls,
Sadie,
The Girls,
Sadie,
Also by Courtney Summers,
About the Author,
Copyright,

Customer Reviews

Most Helpful Customer Reviews

See All Customer Reviews

Sadie 4.5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 44 reviews.
Macsbooks More than 1 year ago
Sadie is a young girl set on revenge against the man she is certain has murdered her sister. Her life has been hard, the daughter of an alcoholic mother and non-existent father, Sadie has raised herself and her sister with the help of an older, loving neighbor. After her mother's disappearance from their lives, Sadie continues to take care of her sister alone until the fateful night that her sister is savagely murdered. Sadie knows who did it despite the fact that the police have done nothing and followed no leads. Sadie disappears into the night looking for the killer, leaving no clues behind and telling no one her destination. This is where the story begins: Sadie is missing and the loving neighbor wants to know where she is, what has happened to her. She elicits the help of a very skeptical podcast reporter who has done some podcasts about interesting people in rural areas. The author uses both first hand accounts from Sadie and the podcast episodes. While I'm beginning to think that the use of blogs and podcasts in literature are becoming a crutch and a little too overused, in this particular instance it works very well. The author uses the reporter to ask a question and then, seamlessly, flows into the character's response on the podcast. There were times that I could easily imagine how this would have sounded and what it would have looked like "on air." Rather than being a crutch, it became an enhancement to the story. The book also is specially geared toward "young adults" and I think this type of writing works for them. With that in mind - the "young adult" aspect of this book - I think this is the first time I've read something within this genre in which I truly felt that the story had merit. When I was a young adult or younger, we were offered amazing stories that told the grittier, darker side of being a teen. S E Hinton's series, The Outsiders, or the horrific tale, Go Ask Alice, were required reading for teens and young adults. Somewhere along the way, Harry Potter became the norm, for adults and kids alike, and I think that books with substance took a back seat. Sadie, however, is a real coming of age story about rural America, alcohol and drugs, runaways and the horror that far too many young people and young adults must deal with as a regular part of their existence. There is no sugar-coating here, no happy endings for everyone: this is life and it is told expertly. Sadie is a book that I will read again and again and recommend to every reader I know. It is a must read for teens and young adults. It is a story for this generation in today's society, a story that will stand the test of time. A million thanks to #CourtneySummers for writing such an astounding book; to #Netgalley and #StMartinsPress for my advanced copy.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book had me in tears by the end of it. My name is Sadie haha thats how it caught my eye. Read it you wont regret it.
FenKoeswanto 7 months ago
" But love is complicated, it's messy. It can inspire selflessness, selfishness, our greatest accomplishments and our hardest mistakes. It brings us together and it can just as easily drive us apart" - Courtney Summers, Sadie The story follows a 19 years old Sadie, in a mission to kill a man that murdered her 13 years old sister, Mattie. Sadie and Mattie live in a trailer. Their mother, a drug addict, left the girls in the care of their step-grandmother. Sadie practically raised Mattie. She loved Mattie very much that she would do everything to protect her from any life disappointment. When Mattie's body found lifeless on the side of a road, Sadie left everything behind and went after the man who murdered her sister. Sadie is one of those books that left a deep impact on me. It's so heartbreaking and dark; full of pain and grief. At some point, I wanted to pull Sadie out of the book and gave her a big hug and all the love that she deserved. Sadie will be hard to forget and will stay with me for a long time
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Triumph%2C+Tragedy%2C+Suspense%21%0AA+story+that+reaches+all+corners+of+society.++I+am+glad+that+I+was+introduced+to+this+via+summer+book+club.+A+GREAT+read+for+teens+due+to+format+as+well+as+content.+
JillJemmett More than 1 year ago
This audiobook was recommended to me by a friend. The story is written partly as a podcast, so it works really well as an audiobook. There are even sponsorship “ads” for MacMillan Publishers during the podcast chapters, which really made it seem like a podcast. One of the other great things about this audiobook was that it had many different voice actors. Each character had a different voice, which made it seem like a live production. It also made it easier to keep track of the characters. Sometimes it’s difficult for me to follow an audiobook because I listen to it when I’m driving. This one was much easier to follow because it was more like a TV show or play, since it had so many different actors who put a lot of emotion into their voices. This story was fascinating and heartbreaking. There were many horrifying subjects, such as children being sexually assaulted, which were difficult to hear. There weren’t graphic details, but they were implied. These subjects may be difficult for some readers. I loved this story, but the ending didn’t give me the closure that I was hoping for. I don’t want to give anything away, but I enjoyed the whole thriller up until the end, which left me with a big question. I still highly recommend this audiobook. I’ll definitely look for more Courtney Summers books!
bll1010 More than 1 year ago
Another girl has gone missing, but this time, she left on purpose. Unfortunately, she did not tell anyone of her plans. Thus begins the story of 19-year-old Sadie, who sets off on a quest to avenge the death of her 13-year-old sister, Mattie, whom she cared for as a mother due to their actual mother’s abandonment. Sadie’s story is told in two parts: her own, as she searches for her sister’s killer with a singular focus and vitriolic determination that blasts through everyone she encounters, and that of West McCray, a true-crime podcaster who has been called by Sadie’s neighbor and surrogate grandmother, May Beth, to track the disappearance of another girl from impoverished, small-town Colorado whose case does not seem to rank with the local police. Sadie’s narration takes us through her tenacious pursuit of Mattie’s killer, one of the many scary men who her drug-addicted mother brought into their lives. McCray’s component, including frequent interviews and off-the-record content, tracks Sadie months later, as her abandoned car is found, providing scant clues to her current whereabouts. The two parts come together in a raw, gritty, heart-wrenching story that will stick with readers well after the final page. Kids who are up for a dark story will love this book. It’s gripping, intense and does not pull any punches or talk down to teen readers. The podcast format, ala Serial, will appeal to teens as it mimics familiar media and makes the book a quick read due to the inclusion of so much dialogue. I really appreciated the inclusion of Sadie’s struggle with a stutter. Stuttering is so rarely portrayed in books, and Summers does it very well. Sadie’s stutter frustrates her and poses a constant challenge to her communication, but she works around it, as she always has, and still manages to be terrifyingly effective at getting her message across. Sadie is full of rough language, violence, and rage, but the powerful story is worth reading through some of the haunting details.
JLeighG More than 1 year ago
Blood Water Paint is an excellent addition to my verse collection. It is a strong and powerful book that will stick with me for the years to home. Artemesia is a strong character that shows her emotions through painting. Along with her mother’s stories, Artemesia has the strength to stand up for herself in a time period that didn’t except that men did anything wrong. If you're looking for a book with strong female figures, Blood Water Paint is for you.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
As a podcast fiend it was fun to explore the medium differently . I couldn't put it down .
shedevilmx88 More than 1 year ago
I won a copy of Sadie on Goodreads giveaway page. I am so happy I did, I found a new author that I absolutely love. I can't wait to read another book by her. This book will take you on an emotional roller coaster. I could not put the book down. I just had to know how it ended. I would highly recommend it if you can handle the subject matter.
ChaptersWeLove More than 1 year ago
Published: September 4th, 2018 Publisher: Wednesday Book Rating: 5/5 My thoughts I read this book about 2 weeks ago and I'm still thinking about it.  This is one of those books that you hear people talk about and makes you pick it up to see what is all about and I'm glad I did, I just couldn't put this book down and when someone said if you like the book you should pick up the audiobook as well I was right on it and oh my gosh were they right! "And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl". This story is about 19 year old Sadie and her search for the man she thinks murdered her sister Mattie.  The story is told in alternating POV's by Sadie and by West McCray a radio personality. "I'm going to kill a man. I'm going to steal the light from his eyes. I want to watch it go out. You aren't supposed to answer violence with more violence but sometimes I think violence is the only answer". This books is so incredibly well written, Sadie grew up poor without a father and an drug addict mother, she had to grow up fast and take care of herself and also her little sister Mattie.  She endures abuse from her mother's boyfriends, growing up she really had it rough. This book is so well done, some parts were harder than others to get thru and my heart kept on breaking for Sadie and worrying about how this whole story was going to end.  I will also add the trigger warning for abuse, abandonment, pedophile, physical and verbal abuse. I really recommend the audiobook, it takes the story to a higher level will a full cast.  The podcast was really interesting and I think that came across the reader perfectly. "In our last episode, I introduced you to the two girls at the center of this podcast, Mattie Southern and Sadie Hunter. Mattie was murdered, her body left just outside her hometown of Cold Creek, Colorado. Sadie is missing, her car found, abandoned, thousands of miles away, with all her personal belongings still inside it. The girls’ surrogate grandmother, May Beth Foster, has enlisted my help in finding Sadie and bringing her home. For those of you just tuning in, this is a serialized podcast, so if you haven’t listened to our first episode, you should do that now. We have more story than time to tell it - but I suppose that’s true for all of us". I will also add this book kind of reminded me of The Female of the Species by Mindy McGinnis who is one of my favorite authors, the only difference between The female of the Species and Sadie is Sadie is definitely darker or at least it was for me. Overall, even thought this is a darker and heartbreaking story with lost of trigger warnings I recommend it to everyone, I will be picking up more of Courtney Summer's work.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
The audiobook was amazing 10/10 recommend. Honestly this book feels so real. Like I feel like I could look up The Girls podcast and listen to updates on Sadie and I could google Sadie and Mattie's names and a news article would pull up. It was so well done. There are some parts that aren't the best (like when she meets the teens at the bar. that was weird), but overall it was amazing. Such a good read/listen. Y'all should definitely pick it up!!
Take_Me_AwayPH More than 1 year ago
When I first requested this, I was trying to be part of the blog tour. But then I started hearing what a wild ride it was and I just wanted it because I needed to know for myself. And next time I'll trust you all because it was most definitely a wild, crazy, ride. Sadie hasn't had much, but she's always had her sister. She's there to take care of her since her mom has gone. But then one day Mattie is found dead and the police have no clues. Sadies takes it upon herself to find Mattie's killer. But soon, she's missing too. Then, a radio anchor hears of Sadie's story and starts his own investigation in the hopes that they can find Sadie before it's too late. I am new to Summers' works, but after reading this one, I know it won't be my last. Many authors have so much trouble trying to "show" readers instead of "tell" them what's happening, but not Summers. With the added descriptors and the vivid way puts them into reader's heads, it wasn't hard to be sucked into her writing. I found myself wanting to take a 15 minute break at work just to be able to read some more. And then there was the format. I'm not usually a fan of books that have letters, interviews, etc., but this one was actually ok. I found myself losing track of who was talking a little bit because I never read those lines in books with that format. I think I was too into the subject matter to be put off by the format. The way I know I really liked a book is the way it makes me feel and how much I want to tell everyone about it. With this one, I raged, I got choked up, I was terrified for Sadie, and in the end my heart broke for her. My emotions were all over the place with this one. I found myself talking to the book out-loud and arguing with Sadie when I didn't like the thing she decided. It took my emotions on a roller coaster, and I loved every second of it. The only reason I did not give this book 5 stars is the ending. I feel like there is way too much unanswered and I need to know what happens. I kid you not, I went looking for more episodes of the podcast online because I just knew there was more. There has to be. This is not an easy read, but it definitely is a great one. It will make the reader go through so many things, all while questioning if Sadie is right or wrong in all of this.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
A heartbreaking mystery! Thanks to NetGalley and Wednesday Books for the opportunity to read and review Sadie by Courtney Summers! Sadie seems lost. She’s searching for her stepfather to exact revenge for her younger sister’s murder. As the story is told, Sadie’s background unfolds. She’s had a life of abuse and neglect along with several “stepdads”. Sadie raised her younger sister Mattie since their mother was usually high or nonexistent in their lives. Sadie is a difficult book to review because I don’t want to give anything away. The intensity and pain broke my heart but the unconditional love that Sadie has for Mattie warmed my heart back up again. Sadie’s stutter made it difficult for her to make friends and her tragic life made it impossible for her to even keep or have friends. She lives in painful loneliness and only has the idea of vengeance to keep her going. A difficult to put down mystery, Sadie pulled 100% of my attention until I finished reading the book, 5 heartbreaking stars! * I received a complimentary copy of this book for voluntary review consideration.
Booklover225 More than 1 year ago
Courtney Summer's develps a great story. The way it's written is different going back and forth between a radio show and what is happening to Sadie was a little confusing at first but I figured it out and it keeps you interested. Sadie, is a book that will keep you thinking. I liked the strength and determination of Sadie. The terrible burdens pushed upon her so young by a hard life. Raising her younger sister is the brightest and happiest Sadie has ever been in her short years. She was happiest when taking care of her little sister. But bad things happen to good people and this is a book that describes how life can be brutal. Sadies mom is not present most of the time between one night boyfriends and drugs then live in boyfriends at times she is not capable of much but wanting her next fix. .Being so young left to raise a daughter is part of her problem weakness is another. The book starts off with the murder of Sadies little sister. Her whole world comes tumbling down. It continues with what she does to correct the fact it is an unsolved murder. Sadie disappears after a year of no one being caught. Her tracking around the country has a purpose that is learned slowly. She is smart and methodical and the things she learns along the way makes her more determined to keep on. Good read so glad I asked to review this book and NerGally allowed me too. I received this digital copy in exchange for my honest opinion.
Cutiefulpink More than 1 year ago
My Thoughts... for more check out www.amysbooketlist.blogspot.com There’s just something about Sadie. From the opening paragraph, you can tell this book is going to be different. This is a fairly original format, where not only is the main POV supplemented by a podcast investigation, but the podcast occurs after Sadie’s own story. So, there are multiple timelines involved in explaining the same series of events, one in the present where Sadie tells the audience what IS happening to her, and the podcast in their present describing the past and trying to uncover what DID happen. The actual plot was pretty great, with interesting twists and mysterious characters. Everyone’s motivations were constantly in doubt, keeping the reader on edge. The ending is where this book became amazing. Without giving away any spoilers, just know that you can’t possibly be disappointed about this conclusion. Especially, once you think about it and acknowledge how realistic it is. The Characters... In Sadie, the heroes and villains are pretty clearly defined, making this mystery different from most. Sadie is wonderfully written and obviously brave beyond measure. The events and people in her life dramatic and treacherous. Completely flawed human beings, some who were inherently evil and some who were just trying to make the best of terrible circumstances. Audiobook Review... This might be one of my favorite audiobooks ever! I mostly read audiobooks because I have young children, so not a lot of time to sit and read. Don’t’ get me wrong, I love them, but I won’t choose the audiobook over the print version…usually. This audiobook was so good, that I would suggest you listen to it even if you have already read this book. The production value was simply off the charts. Memorable Lines… “Every little thing about you can be a weapon, if you're clever enough.” ― Courtney Summers, Sadie “It was a terrible thing, sure, but we live in a world that has no shortage of terrible things. You can't stop for all of them.” ― Courtney Summers, Sadie
SarahJoint More than 1 year ago
One of the most fascinating characters I've read about recently and the most unique way of telling the story combines to make this a five star book for me. This would be memorable without the podcast aspect, but that's what makes it extra special. As we read the story from Sadie's point of view, we also get sections of a true crime podcast centered around the missing woman and her murdered sister. Both Sadie (the missing) and Wes, who runs the podcast, are searching for answers. He's always steps behind her, and we're left wondering what'll happen if he ever catches up. Mattie was Sadie's purpose in life. She was her little sister, but in many ways Sadie acted as her mother. She cared for her, made sure she ate and went to school. She kept her safe... until she couldn't. Until Mattie, only a young teenager, was found dead. Now Sadie has a new purpose: find the killer. Make him pay. No matter what the cost. No matter who she encounters on the way. No matter how dangerous it is. She'll make him pay. Bleak, heartwrenching, and undeniably powerful. This is one that will stay with me for some time and one I've already made a point to recommend to other readers. If you're not generally a YA reader, don't be afraid of this one. It stands on its own without ever relying on the usual YA troupes. It might feature characters in their teens, but it's a dark and moving story. One of my favorites this year. I received a copy to review from Wednesday Books. This in no way affects my opinion.
SchizanthusNerd More than 1 year ago
Content warnings include murder, missing persons, violence, addiction, sexual assault, grief, child abuse, and abandonment. “Sometimes I don’t know what I miss more: everything I’ve lost or everything I never had.” I don’t usually say this but for this book I will. Please don’t read too many reviews prior to reading this book, but please, read this book! I finished reading only a few minutes ago and the tears that haven’t been soaked up by several tissues are currently drying on my face, which I expect looks like a mess! “It’s not about finding peace. There will never be peace.” This was my first, but certainly not my last Courtney Summers book and I didn’t know what to expect other than knowing there was a mystery. I know Sadie, the book and the character, will haunt me. Before I’d finished the first 50 pages I was already searching my library catalogue for more of Courtney’s books. This surprised me because I often struggle with books that switch between formats; in this case some chapters are told from Sadie’s perspective in first person and others are transcripts of podcasts. In this book I loved the different voices that contributed to the story and never felt the jarring that can happen during transitions from one to the other. “Ever since Mattie died, it’s been like this, this surfacing of ugly things, forcing me to witness them because living through it all wasn’t enough. When Mattie was alive, I could push it down inside me because I had things to do, I had to look after her. And now … I still have things to do.” In the beginning the podcast is well behind Sadie as she searches for her sister’s killer. I both longed for and feared the podcast catching up to her in its timeline. This book tackles so many painful topics but for the most part I didn’t feel weighed down; instead I was bouyed by Sadie’s sarcasm, along with her perseverance and resilience. I will definitely remember “Becki with an i” and hold a place in my heart for Javi with the silent J, Cat, Nell, May Beth and even Claire. “I wish his darkness lived outside of him, because you have to know it’s there to see it. Like all real monsters, he hides in plain sight.” One of my favourite bookish things happened in this book; another much loved book was referenced in this one. I may have gotten a teensy bit excited when a character was seen reading The Baby-Sitters Club and I’m not ashamed to tell you that I knew the exact one they were reading from the description of the cover image alone. I did start to think I may have fallen into some plot holes but every one was filled in along the way. All of my questions were answered; all except for the most important one, but I was strangely satisfied with the ‘fill in the blanks yourself’ component. In the hands of a less capable writer I would have been really frustrated by this but with Sadie it only feels right that my heart should be conflicting with my mind.
CalsConstantRavingReviews More than 1 year ago
✨ For more book-focused fun, check out my socials: ✨ https://constantravingreviews.com MY EXPERIENCE WITH THIS BOOK: I gobbled this audiobook up in one day. The entire thing was brilliant. Bloody Brilliant. The voice acting is what took it from 4 stars to 5. It truly felt like I was witnessing everything unfold. It was beautifully worded and should never read this: unless it's in audiobook form! CHARACTERS/DYNAMICS: Sadie: I kid you not, after listening to this podcast, I kept stuttering over my words. I appreciate the unique and largely under-discussed disability: speech impediments. This was perfectly powerful in this novel. Sadie, overall, was flawless. What a beautiful human. I truly hope she is alive. This story is too ambiguous to truly tell us. Mattie: Congrats, Mattie. You win the Worst Sibling or Family Member Ever Award. I get Sadie is being selfish, wanting somebody to worship her, but Sadie's acts for Mattie were anything but selfish. Mattie acts 1000x more irrational than Sadie, even when Sadie was half Mattie's age. I think there's a fault at crediting Mattie as "just a kid." That reduces pre-teens/pre-adults as these part-human things. Not fully human, but almost developed to reach the label. Mattie was 13, god damn it. She was her own person, not some uncontrollable beast that had no conscious. She had more education than Sadie, yet continued to be so... stupid. So blind. Perhaps it's willfully blind? Who knows. Mattie is not worth the love that Sadie devoted upon her. Claire: I was expecting Claire to end up being the killer. Maybeth: What a great surrogate grandmother. I absolutely love that Summers' created one too-- my family is the only time I've ever been exposed to "surrogate grandmothers". I wish Maybeth wasn't religious, but this is sticking true to the stereotype of Southern trailer trash. Podcast Guy, West: what a lil bitch at the beginning, aye? He gets better. I appreciate how self aware he is, and how often he self-reflects. He asked great questions and didn't dumb down the investigation. Darren/Christopher/Keith/Jack: I wish he had a crueller death, that SOB. All the friends Sadie made along the way: Harvey, Kerri, Kat... they were amazing characters. I wish we could have an alternate universe where Sadi, Harvey, Kerri and Kat go to high school. That'd be amazing. PLOT: I was swept up in all of it. It was not as mysterious or plot twisting as I expected it to be, but I loved her quest and adventure. Who she met. Who she confronted. So powerful. STRUCTURE: The structure flips between Sadie's perspective (in the past), and the podcast, The Girls (set in present time). THEMES: - Pedophilia. - Graphic violence and swearing. - Blood. - Angst. - Revenge. - Sisterhood. - Substance abuse. THE ENDING: I was expecting a few more plot twists, but nothing came. That's okay. My expectations were set to Monday's Not Coming's level. Where the mum was the killer, and that our narrator was actually in some psych-stand still, reliving her search for her dead best friend. IMPACT: This book leads me questioning: 1. Is Sadie dead? 2. Will the podcast continue with a season 2, with another load of dead girls? 3. What happened in the forest? 4. Why would Keith kill Mattie? Why? 5. Did Keith kill any of the other girls?
bjneary More than 1 year ago
Thank you to NetGalley and St. Martin’s Press and Wednesday Books for the advance reader copy Sadie by Courtney Summers in exchange for an honest review. Summers’ Some Girls Are and Cracked Up To Be were always being passed around and constantly checked out by students. Sadie is a compelling, tense novel detailing Sadie’s self-hatred for failing to keep her sister safe. After her sister, Mattie, is murdered, the reader follows this tense mystery from Sadie’s point-of-view and through a podcast, The Girls, narrated by famed journalist, West McCray, as he searches for Sadie. I could not put this book down; Sadie’s life is hell; her mother is drug addicted and derelict. Sadie has a severe stutter and suffers from abuse; I rooted for her as she used her wits to follow clues. Mattie was the center of Sadie’s life and when her mother takes off; Sadie takes over the care of her little sister. With the police no help, and an absent mother, will Sadie find her sister’s murderer? Will McCray find Sadie? Courtney Summers has written an explosive, riveting novel.
MaleehaS More than 1 year ago
I don't know how to summarize my feelings on this book. The subject matter that it deals with is incredibly ugly. Ugly, but unfortunately so, so real for many girls. For many kids. It was heartbreaking to read. That said, I really enjoyed the podcast format of this book. Those chapters were more fast-paced and interesting to me than reading from Sadie's POV. And the ending... I think the ending is the reason why I'm left feeling so uncertain. The lack of closure is hard to grasp and actually quite haunting.
Sandy5 More than 1 year ago
I think there has been a lot said about this novel so I won’t rehash what this novel is all about. This novel is about a topic that I am drawn to. As I read this topic: I want to see justice served, I want the pain to go away, and I want the fear to vanish. I liked how Courtney Summers set up this novel. Alternating chapters between serial podcasts and Sadie’s perspective, it was different than other novels I have read pertaining to this topic. As I read Sadie’s portion of the novel, I felt more emotional and more in tune with the events that affected her. The material felt heavy and I understood exactly what Sadie was going through. As I read through the podcasts, these sections helped piece the story together but they didn’t seem to carry the emotional elements that I felt as I read Sadie’s own words. These podcasts were important to the story as they helped me catch my breath but they were, “like giving me the facts or weeding through the information,” for they were reporting and I just couldn’t find any emotion in them. Although some individuals didn’t care for the ending, I enjoyed it. I thought it went well with how the novel was set up. I thought the author addressed the topics inside this novel very well and I was hooked from the beginning pages. This novel is not for everyone because of its tough issues. I feel that the author tackled these tough issues in a unique style, producing a wonderful novel. I received a copy of this novel from St. Martin’s Press and NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
Caroldaz More than 1 year ago
The death of Sadie’s sister was devastating to her. She could not stand the thought that the killer was still living, still breathing, so she set out to find the killer. Sadie was in a very dark place but I loved her, loved the character. Beautifully written!
alyssayuri More than 1 year ago
Having a druggie for a mom made Sadie take care of her younger sister, Mattie, at a young age. And Sadie truly loves Mattie no matter what. But when Mattie was found dead, Sadie will do anything to get her revenge. This book tackles issues that a lot of people don't even talk about. And I thought that this book was so brave in telling that story. I find it amazing that even the most vulnerable girl can find that thing that can make them snap. I liked Sadie. She's very independent from the beginning and seeing her grow, and fighting for what she cares for is amazing! This was a hard read though. There's just parts where I cringed. But this thing is reality. It was just a slow read for me though. There's a huge part where it was dragging. And the changing point of views wasn't something I appreciated. But it did work. All in all, it was an okay read. I just wish there was more to Sadie's side of the story. *I received an ARC for this book
AmberK1120 More than 1 year ago
Thank you to the publisher for sending me a free copy of the book. I have been struggling for the last several days to come up with a way to explain my reaction to this book. It rocked my world, but it also destroyed me. I mean, Sadie as a narrator was both brilliant and devastating. Seriously. I'm fairly certain Summers ripped my heart out, threw it on the ground, stomped on it with soccer cleats, then walked away leaving me to put myself back together. 
First, let's talk about the format. Loved it! This mix of media's was such a fun and engaging way to tell the story; a podcast coming at the story from "now", and Sadie's viewpoint coming from "then". I've always enjoyed stories that have two timelines meeting in the middle, if you will. 
Second, the characters. The topic of the story was pretty intense in itself, but the characters, especially Sadie, brought it to life in such a vivid way. To the point that I can picture every single one of the people who had a role in this book. They came alive for me so quickly and stayed planted in my mind. 
And finally, the storyline. Brilliant and devastating, with an ending that still guys me every time I think of that one scene. (If you've read the book, you know exactly which one I'm talking about.) This book is officially taking up residence on my "Top Reads of 2018" list.
DressedToRead More than 1 year ago
Grabbed my heart! Sadie is nineteen and she is on a mission to hunt down the man who she is convinced murdered her little sister, Mattie. She is a power house of energy and she touched my heart with her overwhelming love for Mattie. Their single mom, Claire was addicted to drugs, so Sadie was her fill in "parent." The chapters switch from Sadie's account to a pod-cast serial called The Girls that follows the case and features some interviews. This gave he story such a "real-life" feel that was absolutely riveting. Sadie has not had an easy life and has seen and experienced things that no child should have to. It truly is a dark, heart-breaking account. I'm not sure why this is considered YA because it deals with a lot of sensitive issues, but sadly some will be able to relate to her abusive home life. Her journey takes her down on a dangerous road. At times I felt "crushed", Sadie was both brave and vulnerable. She had a plan and nothing was going to get in her way. Such a memorable character with her own inner light that shined throughout the pages. Oh, that ending! If you like gripping, emotional reads, don't miss this one. Courtney Summers is a brilliant writer.